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| O Lord, my God the One true living God. You saved me from myself, the sinful nature of my flesh that trapped and troubled me for so long. You loved me even though I had not loved You yet knew of You. Lord, my Master you picked me up, washed me clean with the precious blood shed on the cross. I am anew, new creation one that will worship and praise Your glory above all. God guide me I pray through your Holy Spirit, be faithful to Your servant whom can do nothing without You, but anything through You. Your are unshakeable, unchangeable all things. Scripture says " ...I am I AM" Lord God, the I AM thank you I love you. Amen | | |
| Haven't written in this thing in a while. Here at the Uncle's house checking the blogs and writing my thoughts down for all the world to see. I have had a lot of things happen to me. I death in the family, an aunt that I will and do miss something awful. I friend of the family passed away also, this has hit hard, especially my mother. I have an interview with the PD on Monday. Group started again and I am a ball of emotions over it. With my aunt's death and my daddy.... what am I to think or talk about with the group both, one or the other. This is what I think about on a constant basis. Thoughts run around in my head, smashing and bouncing off of one another until they make no sense or mix and make sense. I thought today that I would pretended that my aunt was just at work. What if I had done that with my daddy? how old I'm I to think that pretending that it didn't happen would make the pain I feel go away. This bone marrow deep sorrow, that overwhelms me. Waves come crashing down, like to sea in a storm, swallowing me in grief and despair. God be with me, comfort me, control my thoughts that are dark and scary sometimes. Give me faith that I have a , have a , have a what what do I have? I feel that I have nothing that is permanent, nothing that I can cling to for comfort. But I do, the Lord in always here to cling to and comfort me. This is the faith that I struggle with everyday. Lord be with me, give me a stronger faith so that I don't stumble on these blocks in front of me. | | |
| I have a secret
Current mood:  dorky
Category: Blogging
I love to read friend's blogs and know exactly who and what they are talking about. I have two friends that on many occasion have both separately told me that a certain man would just be the perfect person for me. This in light has frustrated, sadden, and delighted me all at once. The only thing is that I would never tell this man nor would my friends!? This in and of itself is just CRAP! Here you have friends that are just giggly over the fact that they see a possible relationship and torture me with saying "ya'll would be a great couple" they know that I have sat on my hands to not pursue a man. I know that God does not want me to pursue a man and that a man should pursue me. So where are the men you ask?! (shrugs) Your guess is as good as mine....... I told these friends of mine to not tell me this statement anymore and if they feel the urge to go TELL HIM INSTEAD!!! That is my two cents for Sunday enjoy............... | | |
| Well, now I am officially the only single female in the group. A friend of mine got engaged over the weekend. Don't get me wrong I am very excited and happy for her! Here is the count: 2 married, 2 engaged, 2 in relationships..... and then there is me = single. I told a friend of mine that next time they say that a guy is a great type for me, to tell the guy and not me. I am not going to do anything about it, here is the deal everytime, and I mean everytime that I have shown interest in a man first it has ended up in a disaster..... So the man is the one to make the first move, but these days that pool of fish has been stagnit.... if that is how you spell that. I like being single, i enjoy the selfishness of it all. never having to take into consideration another persons plans and/or feeling before i do anything. Then there is the other side that wants the romance and companionship that my friends have. God is modeling me and even the man I am to marry as i type this blog, and in that i find comfort and contentment. (but not great spelling!!! LOL) I have been asked to be a bridesmaid at my recent friends wedding! this is exciting and scary all at the same time. I have never been in a wedding before.... i am done, type at this screen later. | | |
| Well, here it is I have found an old friend and want so bad to have that friend ship back that my heart breaks that all I can do is to read and write e-mails. It sucks and I want my friend to just call and talk to me..... it hurts so bad to not hear his voice.... pray for me that I can accept whatever is to come out of this "reunion" if sorts. I know what i want to happen, but it is not what i want but what is God's will... this is the struggle for me. I am so selfish and i miss him so. he is one of the people that touched my life in a way that God used to bring me to HIS Kingdom. I want to tell my friend this how everytime that I think of the situation that cause me to look at God for comfort involved him and now I have Jesus Christ!!! i am just over joyed to all that has happened to my life...... type in the box later. | | |
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